Waiting waiting waiting

So, I think the worst part of this whole pregnancy thing might have to be the waiting to find out. Every little thing you feel could be your period or pregnancy. My body gives out some pretty typical signs. (1) Bitchiness. Well, have that one down. Flipped out at lunch today over something that did make me mad....and I had had a bad morning. Still, definitely out of control anger. This is a telltale period sign for me. (2) Cramps. We all know what those are like. Definitely have them. (3) Overall crumminess and ickiness...got it. So, it seems like I will be getting my period this week. Should be tomorrow but with the stress of school might be slightly longer.

I hate women who say they just know. No they don't. They just guessed lucky. The odds are in your favor that it will happen in the first three months...and pretty high even in the first month. I think it also annoys me because I thought I "just knew" last time and I turned out to be wrong. The body is a cruel cruel thing. Waiting, also a cruel thing. I wish there was just some tell tale sign as soon as it happened (other than, of course, getting your period). You know like some sort of alarm inside your body that says "I'm here Mom!". Something distinctly not period like and not a bad sign either. Like a faint tattoo in the shape of a heart magically appears on your stomach. That would be sweet. Doesn't work that was though and pretty much all the signs could be pregnancy. Everythign can be attributed to something...implantation cramping, hormone changes for moodiness. I guess it's probably very similar to your body as when you are having your period.

I personally think it is just wishful thinking that I might be pregnant. Meanwhile it's like every other thought in my head....aye aye aye. I could take an early pregnancy test as the doc suggested...but...I want to hold on to my hopes for as long as possible. You don't know either, those tests might not be right. Plus, missing your period seems a pretty surefire way to find out. At least it's only a few more days now.