Saying it Out Loud...and Other Worries

Okay, well, I'm definitely pregnant. I called my OB today to make my appointments. They make you freakin' wait until 8+ weeks. That's annoying. I'm not very good at waiting. I want to go go go!!! I am a planner. I love planning. Now I have to wait until October 14..what???? Also annoyed because they acted like I was requesting an audience with the Pope when I requested an afternoon appointment. Both Mike and I are teachers and it's really a pain to take time off from school, you can't just take a long lunch break, has to be a whole half day. Got her to conceed to 2:30 for the first appointment (no time off of school, yay!) and 1:00 for the second (1/2 day, boo!). Already have a countdown going. Called the rheumatologist also. Just to let her know and because I have a couple concerns about some blood work that was bad in the past.

So the Doctor's receptionists, these were the first people I told. First times I said it out loud. Still didn't sink in. Very worried though because I've been really crampy. I know miscarriage is like 30% in the first trimester, well depends on where you read. Some say that it is only 10-15% of confirmed pregnancies (although confirmed by who, I'm not sure) and that the rest occur before a pregnancy test is even taken. Afraid to even tell Mike if it turns out that I'm miscarrying right now. Called a friend from college who is in her residency in OB and it was the first time I said it outloud. You would be surprised at how freakin' hard it was to say. This was someone real. Someone who knows me...made it so much more real. I really froze when trying to get the words "I'm pregnant" out. She allayed my concerns and also warned that sex might bring bleeding. She said probably not to be concerned unless there is cramping and heavy bleeding (like multiple tampons). No bleeding. Feel much better...but not completely....You just never know.